Pain . . .

i can promise u . . .
no one can love u as truly n deeply as mine
please dont throw tat away :|

I'm in bad condition, i lost everything n everyone, try to be strong, but not strong enough.

yesterday, i go field to find anwar, to discuss about something, but when reach there saw him, about to call his name, suddenly he missing, i looking for him everywhere, still cant find him, then saw my informer,

he tell me about something, about joel thing, he said tat joel bangga n blah blah blah, i feel like, nothing, let him la,

then talk about anwar, then stop, go play football, play football no mood, coz miss her :'(

keep thinking about her, then i stop playing football,

my mind so confused, disturb n upside down, cant think properly n always pening, my heart n soul are tearing apart, i felt so empty, then suddenly rain, rain heavely, go smc saw Rachele, talk awhile with her, then go hang out with muhaimin geng, they keep tease Rachele, n i non stop laugh,

but i feel not comfortable i go walk, sooo cold, shaking n pening :| , wish u were here to hug me :/

wait my dad to fetch me, then go home, bath n straight away sleep coz tired, n i dreamed about her, she text me, she said she change her mind , then my brother wake me up he said tat dinner, 

i felt so sad, its just a dream, if just in dream she will be mine let me sleep n dream forever :'(

then dinner go on9, spamming amar,eka,ain n dyha notification :D . . . but still miss her :(

then suddenly i wan go her fb she unfriend me :(

then go watch "the walking dead", my fav movie :3 

then online back saw notification she friend me back :)

suddenly she inbox me telling sorry coz didnt reply me, and chat awhile, i feeling so much better.

miss her so much :( then she off, n i need to go to work, go work,i still can feel my heart so cold,so empty , so lonely, and i can feel tat she are not ok, i hope i can do something about it :(

after go work, straight way go KK go training martial art, after finish training go home sleep, then wake up go out for awhile n someone tell me something, i felt so sad, so down n i know i'm nobody to her. she wont miss or care me

and i know how was everyone feeling now, when no one miss or care us, when afew days or week without texting or chat with our love one, and when our love one love somebody else, i know how it feel, coz i feel it rite now, so hurt deeply, its just like our soul being taken by the death angel, and the most painful is no one know our suffer and when we are here ready to scarcrifice n give our love n heart but she still wan to tat guy tat never love her as truly as mine :'( ,

sometimes i lock myself in the room, look out side at the window n start to tears, and sometimes i just wish u know how much i love you, but u never know, coz ur love to him make u blind,

and now i just wait for u, till u realize tat how truly n deeply i love you, and no one will love u like i do.

i'll wait n wait till the last of my breath

"Why? Dis pain feel so good?"

original from:-

Yinn

( mr.pathetic )