My Final Decision . . .

Now, 3:47am still awake n think about something,

and i had decide to keep all my hope, my feeling n everything toward her,

i decide i wont talk about our relationship, my feeling to her, my problem or everything, coz i just wish she will happy n smile always just like before, i wont give her pressure or anything now,

for now on, i will be  there for her forever, and i know how hurt n sad she rite now,

coz tat i take dis decision, i will try to make her smile again, i will do everything i could to make tat little cute smile back on her face and if i can, i will try help her with tat guy, even its hurt me so badly, but i dont care, dis is my decision, if she love tat guy so badly, let her love, let her be with him, coz if tat make her laugh n smile, i will support her :)

maybe she treat me like i'm nobody to her, maybe she never miss or care me and maybe i'm nothing to her, but i'm willing sacrifices my happiness just for her, i willing keep my feeling toward her just to see her happy,

if she was mine, she will be mine, if not, even how hard i try, the fate always refuse,

did i hurt? yes!!! i'm hurt when i know she love other guy n tat guy not even love her as truly as me, its hurt me when she miss tat guy, its hurt me more when she stop texting me, but its ok, i understand her feeling and i doesnt matter anymore,

 i'm still grateful to god coz i used to be her everything and i'm grateful coz god send an angel to care n love me even its not last long,

and now i wan to repay her, coz when i'm with her, she give me happiness like no one else give, she give me strenght to fight everything, she give me her trust n heart, she always be with me when i'm down and she the one tat always care n love me. . .

i fail her damn many time, and now i wan make thing rite, i will make her happy even how hard its can tearing my heart, because when i know tat she are happy, its already enough for me,

maybe i will lost my dream girl, maybe i will lost my cute girl and maybe i will lost the girl tat i love the most, but its ok, 

my feeling ain't matter anymore, its just a silly fucking think and its about her now, its not about me, coz me already done n the hope already gone,

and maybe u think i do dis coz i want show tat i'm gentle or anything, NO!!!

i do dis coz i love her n the thing tat i wish the most is to make her HAPPY,

i maybe young n fool, but i'm ready to take all the risk tat might happen to me,

the heartbroken, the loneliness, the emptiness n everything tat might hurt me . . .

i'm ready, and my decision is To make you happy baby :')

"all i ever wanted is ur cute little smile :') "

original from:-

Yinn

( mr. pathetic )