Alone :(

Today Didnt go to school coz feeling not well n go to hospital to go medical check up.
k dont want talk about it la, and now i stay alone in my house, my body still hurt n pain, so cold n rain summore,
cant get up, kidney didnt recover well, plus hungry, no food to eat, to make it short i just left to die la,
i feel Lonely :'(. i dont know wat to do, n no people to chat with, i just hope u can teman me just for today, 
now i just feel like i gonna die, dont wish to live dy, i'm give up, really give up, 
i dont have anyone or anything, they left me like i'm nobody, no one care or love me,
i'm trying to fight n tahan dis pain, its feel like burning, and just now i sent chat box to her, 
ask her to teman me, but hmm . . . no response,
yesterday while i go lepak, i saw everyone have their couple, n i look at myself, i just realize i'm wearing my fit cloth tat i wear when i n my girl 1st date at the stadium, and in the same time, i walk at the same paths tat we walk, hold hand together and hug
and i still can feel her soft hand n warm body. its still fresh in my mind, just feel like it happen minutes ago,
hmm, n slowly tears down on my face, i just think did she still remember tat time, our best moment? our promise? our conversation? our topic?
maybe she have forgot about it, just like she forget me, and now i'm the one hold my promise, hold dis memory and i the one hold my suffering alone.
no one care, even my bestfriends, and tomorrow is my fight with my brother amir farhan. i dont have heart to punch or kick him but i must do wat i have to do, 
hmm, when i saw you, i think ohgod! why u so cute, ur smile n ur laugh just perfect n special to me,
ur cheek n ur lips, so cute, sometimes when i see u, i cant deny tat u are perfect n cute,
when i saw ur cute little smile, its make me wan to tears, showing how perfect u are,
i just wish i can hug u 1 more time, i just wish i can hold ur hand tightly n never let go,
and lastly i hope i will be together like last time but i never deserve an angel like u, coz i had to many sins in dis world, tat why god take u back from me, coz i'm not good guy.
but god, i'm thankful coz u give me an angel like she even its jus a few month, 
thank god coz u take all my sorrow n replace it by an angel like her, and god, thank for create her, to be truth tat is one of ur great creation.
and miann, thank for be tat angel even its just afew month,
miann thank for care n love me, thank coz u always be there when i need u, thank for be so perfect to me.
thank for ur scacrifice n the thing tat u do to me, and lastly thank for everything, u deserve better guy then me..
u are the best thing tat happen in my life, and i'm sorry i give u trouble, i'm sorry i make u uncomfortable, i'm sorry i hurt u, i'm sorry i let u down and i'm sorry i cant be perfect.
if u read dis. i wan u to know, love tat guy, more then u love me, coz he is worth it.
and i will wait for u, till i die.
I LOVE YOU FOREVER~

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yinn

( mr.pathetic )