Mr. Pathetic :|

nobody care n nobody love,
tat me, MR.Pathetic

Hi, its me again, yinn Mr. pathetic and yeahhh, i know :) .
i don't know wat to blog about, hmm. . . how was my life? hmm . . . k, kinda suck, i just feel so down n feel like not gonna to make it, why ?
i tell you why, coz 1st i lost my gurl, the gurl tat i always count on, the gurl i love the most n the gurl tat mean everything to me. 2nd my sickness day by day worst n worst :( , i didnt go medical check up yet, coz i too afraid it gettin worst, not like i scared death, i dont fear death anymore, coz soon or later its doesnt matter coz we still gonna die rite? its just, i make my promise to her tat i will live n stay with her, yeahh i know, me and her already over n gone but i still keep my promise. why? cause a promise always be a promise, and i type tat keep my words,


how was my feeling rite now? actually, i dont know how to describe it, it feel like my happiness doesnt exist in me, just sorrow. i feel so lonely, i dont know who i want to chat, if i know i just dont have mood, i just wan to chat with her :'( , sometimes i wish she text me, ask "how was me?" or "everything ok?"
and sometimes i wish she teman me everynite, when i cant sleep, when i in pain or when i have problem,
i just feel like dont have spirit to live u know? everything tat i do always wrong :'(
and sometimes i wish i'm not yinn,
coz yinn always get unlucky wan, yinn always bring trouble, yinn always be push, yinn always be kick and nobody care or love yinn, i dont know wat is my sins till god test me like dis :'(
i wish i were dead!! wat the good thing if being alive if u always trouble people? wat good thing if being alive no one care n love you? god, i never ask be born like dis, if i know my life gonna be like dis i'd rather die n not to be born, i just dont understand, i give her all my love, i trust her with my life and i give her everything but she still hate n leave me, wat is my mistake?? tell me?! 
i always treat people good if they good to me, i always pray to u but u never answer my prayers, why god? :'(


i'm just tired with all these, i dont think i can get up, coz i weak n lifeless.
everynite when i slept, i always dream about her!! everyday n nite when i do something, my heart keep saying her name!!! but why? i never ask god for anything, i just wan my life be ok n fine like everyone, its tat hard?
tell me, its tat hard? 
everyone said tat i'm lucky coz i'm rich, i got company, i got mercedes bent, i got superbike and i got everything!! but they dont know how was my life really are!!
yes i got everything tat i want!!! but i dont have, LOVE, CARE, HAPPY FAMILY and LOYALTY FRIENDS, wat so good about life when we have everything but dont have love, care, happy family n loyalty friends??? tell me?? "sometimes not everybody can handle luxury". dont think tat i'm rich, tat mean i'm happy, tat mean tat my family never tearing apart n dont think i'm rich i get all the love tat i need.


i just feel no tomorrow for me dy, i'm stuck in dis sorrow :'(
god, pleasee. . . i only ask u give me someone, someone tat i can count on, the one tat i can shared my problem, the one tat love me as truly as mine, the one tat wont let me down n the most importantly give me the girl tat I LOVE THE MOST BACK :'(
I'm tired with everyone says "its ok yinn, everything gonna be fine soon" but the fact, it wont :'(
and why i love her so much? let me tell u . . . 
"She maybe Not Perfect But She Truly Worth It" :'(

Original From:-

Yinn
(mr.pathetic)