My Heart Is A Broken Stereo :')

i hate you? No!! never  crossed on my mind..

The Conversation Between Me And My Heart :')

Heart: yinn, i'm sorry, coz of me u have being fooled, u have being hurt, ur life being upside down.


Yinn:its ok, i never blame u, never blame urself la,


Heart: at the 1st place u told me tat she have changed, i said she just have a bad days, n u believe me.
n then at the stadium i ask u run faster n faster till ur kidney hurt just to win tat kiss, n now do u get tat kiss? no rite?
its my fault coz love her some much till u cant live without her, its my fault ask to believe her so much, i'm sorry have scacrifice alot thing for her coz i told u too, i know u n me love her so much till we two suffer n broken like dis. i'm really sorry, i wish i wont ask u for falling in love with her, if not u wont be so sad, so stress n ur health wont be worst like dis. :'(
u see now, she even care or love u anymore, she also regret n hope tat she wont fall in love with u n meet you, i know how the pain really are, coz i can feel it too.. yinn, i'm really sorry, 


Yinn: oit, listen to me, tell me wat have u feel when i love her n with her?


Heart: i feel so happy, she give me light tat lit up my darkness in me, it make us feel new n love our life, she can make us feel better just by her words, her laugh so cute  till can through me, when we u hug her i feel her warmth, she so soft n nice, she always make us feel better when we two hurt so bad, when u had problem she always there to listen n give advise n to support us. she just change our life to much better, but its not less long :'(


Yinn:then why said sorry?she do alot thing to make us happy, we feel good rite when with her?
never ever regret tat something make our life worth it, she may hurt us, but she also the one make us happy once. but i dont know, i already prove my loyalty to her , i didnt text or chat with other gurl, i sacrifice everything for her, but everything i do means nothing to her but ...
i still love her anyway. i love her coz i love her and because she is miann. :')

its not a sin or ur fault coz u love someone so much, in life we give n forgive. so dont be sorry, i'm fine :')

'Easy Come,Easy Go'

U came in my life as fast as u go. i don't know wat to says,i'm so hopeless to make u stay. dis is not i wish for, dis is not i want it surpose to be, dis is damn far from wat i ever plan. and maybe dis is how u live? u love, give up and throw? n its also maybe tat u really are? NO!! tat is not u, i know u, i know cheng chin miann who really are, she is kind, friendly, n positive gurl. but tat was before? i dont know why did u change, its because of me? i dont wish u to change. coz i love u the way u are, but i know tat u are still cheng chin miann tat i love. if u are not the gurl tat i love the most then who are u?

just god know...

'Why does pain feel so good'

The pain feel so good, its feel like so hurt tat u can't imagine, i dont want to says or i dont wan to tell wat have u done to me, coz wat past is past. i already forgive n forget. but wat i dont understand is, u said tat u love me, but u still hurt me. i know u dont want me to get hurt,

and i wish i can rid of all the pain. but its ok. i dont mind, just like i said, i forgive n forget :')

'Love is blind and hope is dark'

Love is blind,yes its is. it blind my eyes n my mind to see wat have u be. i'm so blind n fool coz can't see wat have u done to me. i trust u blindly n u prove me i'm blind. 

i love u blindly coz i love u with my whole heart  n my soul. But u just throw tat away?

My hope is now dark, dark as my heart, not a single in it. when i know i'm no longer ur fav drug tat always u addicted, u have found a better n strong one, tat strong drug then me. n now u are addicted to it :'(

i'm maybe not ur fav drug anymore but u always be my fav drug n i always addicted to u :'/

'Broken heart, love you with a broken heart'

My heart is broken by u, n just can be fix by you. my broken heart, love you wiht a broken heart. i dont know why, but i still love you, my love toward u is strong, but u never feel the same like i do. i'm sorry for u, coz u never love someone like i did, i'm sorry,i cant give u anything but i only can give u just a dis "Broken Heart". dont u worried, coz dis heart still beat for u. but dis heart have scar n no ligh in it, its feel lonely, the bleeding wont stop, the doctor said it can be cured by ur touched,ur voice n ur love :'(

u can call me stupid n fool, i dont care, coz i love you n tat is my final decision. if loving u is a sin, for u i'd rather the sin.

'I lost the love,i loved the most'

I Had lost The love i loved the most, arghhh, i'm so sad, feel like dying, the pain n the broken never gone.

wat ever i did, its always be a mistake to u, i try to make it rite, but everything goes wrong. i just wish i can be back 3 month ago, so i can make it rite, our relationship ruin coz of silly thing, coz of a joke, i know u love me so much, but cant u think? why god? u take everyone tat i love? why? not everyone but also everything tat i love. O Allah, forgive me if i ever sin, please, give me the strenght give me the courage to pass ur test, i'm weak, without her, she the one make me feel strong, but now u take her away, how could i live?

'I Understand You'

Every nite i woke up, i cant sleep.i sit by myelf n i keep thinking of u, try to find the answer. n now i think i got the answer, u do decision because you deeply love me  but i didn't fully understand what i had when i was with u? breaking up was the hardest decision you had to make, you could see i felt something for someone else even though i said i still loved you and would deny any feelings for the other girl, but i wanted to see if there was something better and not settle down just yet for i was only so young, so after u had enough of the lies u left me. u was still heart broken and still loved me, but hates what i did to u at the same time. Even looking at me brought memories of what we had together, and u felt as though no one could replace what u had with me?

now tell me baby,did wat i think is correct? :/

for the truth, u are the only gurl i love. no other gurl in my heart, just u. but i know, u wont believe me.

i already tried my best to make u understand n convince u, but i failed.

i'm a failured :'(

'I cant remember how, i cant remember why'

After u leave me, everything goes wrong, i cant remember how n i cant remember why, dis thing happen to me. i lost the gurl tat i always hope n count on, i cant shared my problem. nobody care me, my dad keep insult n insult me n my brother blame everything tat happen to my mum, yes,blame on me, tat were i was born.

dad,i'm sorry i cant be perfect,i'm sorry for the trouble tat i always give to u,i'm sorry coz u have bear me n i'm sorry coz i'm useless, i know i'm ur burned to take. i promise to u, its just take a few more years, n i will be no more dad.

i'm so sorry i always let u down,i'm so sorry cant be like my other brother. dis is who really i'm. i dont ask to born like dis. dad,i lost everything, i know u wont understand me, but i really love u. :')

i not just like u down,i like my gurl down, i like my brother down just like i like my mum down :'(.

'I Only pray you never leave me behind,because good music can be hard to find'

Every nite n day, i pray n pray to god tat u never leave me behind,beacause good music can be hard to find.

but my pray never being answer, u still leave me alone, in dis pathetic n cruel world. dis world never being fair, i try so hard but nothing change, still the pain.

i'm dead now,i dont know wat to do. damn!!! i'm so pathetic n useless. why cant i make it rite?fuck me!!!

Baby, how can i forget the times we've shared together? the sadness and the happiness, the failure and succes, the simple hugs and those sweet kisses through the phone :')

sweetheart,i dont know when it will gonna happen again seems like a part of me was gone. i miss all off that.

and i miss you :'(

'Girl I will wait for you'

You know I wait for you..If it takes a lifetime to do. Girl I will wait for you You're the only thing worth holding on to, No matter how far, Girl I can't live without my heart, till the last breath of mine, u know why i never give up on u?coz god know u are mine, coz god make dis heart n dis heart said wait for u :')

n i will wait silently sayang <3

u are worth it to wait, coz a gurl like u never being replace, i'm ready to take the risk tat will happen if i wait for u even waiting for u will sent will back to heaven will wait.

'I'm sorry'

miann, i'm sorry for wat have i done n for wat have u being through with me, i know, u couple with me u got alot of stress, u got alot of trouble, i know i dont deserve u. i know who i really am. u deserve better then me.

if i'm sorry for those memory tat i give u tat always hurt u, i'm sorry for those thing tat i ever promise to u, and i'm sorry coz loving u so much. baby, u always be my miracle tat happen to my life.

u teach me how to love, how to understand n how to through my life.

u teach me alot of thing, u just like one in the million, i cant ever replace u.

i will let u go, even its hard for me, if tat was u wish for, but if u nid anything u know how to find me.

i will be always love,care n wait for u. till ur heart stop beating n after tat :')

I LOVE YOU <3

"Live for you, die for you
And i'll die smiling"

-yinn :')