Last Nite :(

ImissYousomuch :'(

Last Nite, is a hard nite for me, i can't sleep coz i feel so damn pain, my body so cold, ate my medicine dy but nothing change, the doctor have increase the dose dy but still no effect, really feel like dying rite now :'( . i just lock myself in my room n take the pain by myself, feel like screaming but its already 4 something, i look at my phone n feel like to text her, ask her to teman me, but hmm, i can't no longer depend on her, i lost the rite dy, haishh, god, why so pain? if dis my time to go? why didnt the medicine work? if my time have come please make it fast, i cant take the pain no more. :'(
i laying on my bed, n tahan the pain. all i can do is remember my sweet memories tat we make together, our conversation, our sport n our everything,
i still remember tat all my friends said,"take care miann, she love you so much u know". when they all said like tat, i feel so confident between me n her,
after we break up, Brian told me,"aiya, dont worry la,sure she go back to u punye, she love u so much u know"
after Brian n everyone said like tat, i feel like i have hope.
but i dont know, if my friends were wrong? :'(
gurl, I love you, i'll miss you but i can make it alone. 
i want you, i need you, but i cant hold my own. cause i can't tie u down,
you've got to be free, i can't make u love me, only one guy tat love you truly, Just me :')
if u wish to go, just go. i can't stop u, even i cant ask u anything, coz just like u said to me "i'm nothing to u"
if u meet my replacement, i just wan to says, love him, love him more then u love me,
promise him tat u know u will keep, not promise something bullshit to make him feel better,
never ask him to change coz when he changed, ur life will be boring, coz u have 2 shadow live in ur life now.
just let me the 1st n the last person be the victim. i dont wish any guy tat love u truly as mine be the same,
i never regret or wish i not meet u, beside, i'm really glad to meet you, u make me know how happiness mean.
tat all i wan to says,
i wait for u :')

-Being forget :'(