The Day after U Leave :'(

dis words tat make me feel better,
can i still count u?please?
where is ur promise?
Please!! i nid you :'(
when u sent dis big smile on my face baby...
really :')

The last day when u says u love me,u sayang me..
and tat nite u change..u completely change..
i dont know why,just suddenly..
"HURT :'( "

The day after u leave me...u just not leave me but u hurt n insult me,i dont know why u should do tat,i wish to post wat have u inbox to me,but i dont want coz it will make u bad.i know u not bad,how i know?i just know,my friends ask me why i still love you
ijust smile n answer "pity for u bro,u never love someone just like i do"then he speechless.
after u leave me,the ligh in my life no more,i dont have anyone tat i cant depend or count on,i lost the people tat i hope the most,i also cant eat,sleep,study or do anything.i cant forget her,she just mean everything to me even i'm nothing to her.i just cant forget you,really cant.even i try so many time but i still fail.
Go medical check up and got a bad result,i'm getting worst n worst.the pill tat doctor give me more strong,and sometimes i wan to sleep i nid to take sleep pill,damn!!!i'm pathetic :(
even u hurt me,even i dont know why u do tat, i still love you n hope u be my friends.
i know u have to..i know u are suffer and i dont understand but ireally tried to understand,really try..
i already forget n forgive..n now i'm waiting for you to think,i just wan us to be friends.
tat all,nothing much.the truth i never hate you or regret tat i love you.
i will wait till my last breath..i promise...
yesterday,i saw u at smc around 3 something,
u're alone,i tried to accompany u but i lose the rite n u wont let.when i come near u,maybe u dont notice,
i look deeply in ur eyes,i saw tat u are lonely,sad,suffer,pain,dissapointed n many more.Gurl,i will try my best to bring back tat cute little smile in ur cute face dear.
i swear n promise,just trust me,take me as ur friends.
i will wait n wait...
Baby,let all my happiness be yours,let all your sadness be mine,let all smile be yours,let all your tears be mine and let the whole world be yours and only u be mine :'(..
When I asked what I was to do when you left, my friends all said ” You will really miss her for a few days but quickly you will stop being sad and soon after that you will stop thinking about her at all.” Those words that they spoke made me so sad, not because I thought they were true but because it is such a large pitty that none of those people I talked to had never, ever loved anyone the way I love you



U Give me more lovin than i've had,u make me feel better when i feelin sad...
u tell me tat i'm special when i know i'm not..u make me feel good when i hurt so bad :'(
i'm gladly i found u n love being around u baby..
you always make it easy,easy as 1,2,3,4..
tat how i feel when i'm with u...n i will do the same to u dear




P/s:i cant blog wat i really feel coz i just curi on9..
gurl,please be my friends?u wont regret...
and i still love n care you :(

To Be Continue....
(should i post the thing tat she said to me?)