Maybe This Year Is My Last Year?

I need you :(
help me?

Today, 22/12/11 
was taking PMR result day, at the first. . . damn super duper nervous la sial . . .
reach school at 9 something then go lepak at SA, with Yaya , aiman n shaz . . .
talk talk talk, then 10 go enter school . . .pheww...that time suddenly my heart beat faster n faster . . . damnnnn . . . i hope i past all the subject . . .
then take the result i just get 2A and i past all subject :o . . .hmm . . . not good enough for my family n me . . . then i saw My Ex, hmm . . . 1st time i saw her in dis few month, damn miss her but i dont dare to talk or stare at her, coz hmm . . . u know . . . its feel like hmm . . .dont know la how to explain . . .after take result then straight away go to smc with James Sim . . . damn, he's damn fucking annoying, keep teasing me about my ex -.- . . . haishh . . hahaha . . .nevermind la . . . past dy nothing can do . . .
so hmm . . . yesterday i text her, just asking how was she n wish her goodluck, then a few minutes later she reply, at that time i feel hmm . . . damn miss her + stun + awkward + no idea wat to says . . . just 3 message only :(
then i give her good nite text . .  hmm . . . lame rite me?? i just dont know wat to says, and when she replied my text, its stun my whole body . . .
and i know, she might dont wan to text me . . . she happy with her life without me . . . hahaha . . . bodoh nye ko yinn . . .
so, back to my result thingy, after take result lepak for awhile then call dad to fetch me after that go office . . . sit there n doin nothing, not feeling very well coz sick, and just now i cough bleed o, medicine abis dy :/ .
 then i hear my dad said wan hantar me boarding school . . .hmmm . . . i dont know whether its good news or bad news, then my dad said if i didnt get into boarding school he will shift me school at puchong -.- . . . damn . . . 
haishhh, i dont know whether next year i will be at Kota kemuning or not . . . 
and i still confused whether to stay or shift . . . hmm . . . i think i should shift, because no one need me also, and 1 more no one care if i xde pown . . .
haishhh , hmm . . . i wish she text me asking how was me . . . and i wish she start the conversation 1st, then i will know she wan to talk to me,
actually, i not hoping she will be my gf back, i just hope that she can be my friends, normal friend?
coz i'd rather be her friend then losing her from my life . . .
but hmm . . . keep dreaming yinn . . . ok, that all bye :/