Trying To Be Strong . . .

You already Delete me,
just like deleting something useless file in the pc

Monday( 31/10/11)

Goin To school As usual, Then got ceramah n ceramah . . . blah blah . . .damn boring . . .

then i sit with Joel Tan, He start  The conversation About My ex . . . ok, then talk talk talk . . . he said tat my ex like him . . . yeahh, i know tat . . . then ask him "did u like her too?" he answer "no" . . . then i said owh . . .

Then joel said something tat make me  pissed off . . . even she hate me but i still care her, i really do . . 

joel said tat "i didnt do nothing, i just talk then suddenly she like me, sooo easy n cheap" -.- . . .

Wtf man, Easy n cheap? wat do u think she are?? a whore? bitch? feel like wan to give my punch to him . . 

but i cant, coz who am i wan to back her up? :'/

then talk talk . . . he said about call her at nite n blah blah blah . . . just dont care la . . .then joel suddenly ask "bro, Wat IF i couple with her? " and i answer "i will whack u now , haha . . just joking man, if u think u can make her happy then i will give u all my support" then *he silent for awhile*

about wat i tell him, is truth , if he really can make my ex happy, i will give all my support to him . . 

after that, did i still love her, and i silent for awhile, then answer "yes :') "

then i tell him tat i dont have hope coz she already damn hate me . . . he ask me why? then i tell him about obama thing . . . after tat he said tat "she are bodoh!! Class oncidium!!!" then Reshan laugh . . . i think like WTH -.- . . .

Good joel -.- . . . then he said something . . . i dont know if it real, but i hope he really wan to :)

then stop talking . . . finish go home then go KK back lepak with ain, she ask me wheather i already eat my medicine or not, and yes i already take my medicine :)

after tat, she ask me already give up on her? then i just simply answer, dont know, but i still love her, the problem is she hate me . . .then talk talk* skip . . .

Tuesday(1/11/11)

goin school but didnt go in :p , ponteng, go lepak with ainun, i damn miss my ex so much, but i keep it, trying to be strong . even when i know the hope is gone, but i still love her n wont give up , she already hate me, she easy to forget me but hard to forgive me , she just wan someone tat is perfect, and i'm not anyone to her , but its ok la, all i do is wait for her n be happy with her,

i feel so tired, coz i didnt sleep :(

its already 2 month i cant sleep, she really give me a big impact, hmm . . . sometimes the tears slowly rolling down in my face while thinking about her, i doesnt expect tat we all end like this but . . its already happen .

i just miss her so much, but she miss someone else, someone tat never think,care,love or even miss her . 

i just find the world is kinda of funny, we always love the one who will like but we never love the one who love us truly, because we are too blind to see it :'(

while lepak, my new brother, ask me to join his gang, then i said i'm ok with tat . . . i got 2 new family member :')

stylo brother . . . and now i still cant sleep, miss her so much . but all i can do is nothing :'(

Wat ever i do, wat  ever i says to her she gonna hate me anyone . . .

but wat ever she do, wat ever she says to me, i'm the one tat always love her the most in dis world :'(

original From:-

Yinn
( mr. pathetic )